My fear and self doubt had not led me to a good place. I was rife with insecurities. I used substances - sugar, alcohol, nicotine, drugs, junk food - as coping strategies. I has such a dreadful relationship with myself that I couldn't comprehend why anyone would want a relationship with me. At one point, I thought that I was such a failure, that the world would be a better place without me. Thankfully, I failed at that
. My self esteem was on the floor.
Hitting rock bottom changed things. Through counselling and then coaching, I found a brand new way of looking at life - and me!
In 2004, I had the opportunity to train as a coach. My business, Positive Belief, was launched in 2005. It was never a strategic career plan. In fact, I believe that my business started me, rather than me starting it.
Over the years, I trained in numerous methodologies. I travelled the world to learn from the best teachers. worked with amazing mentors and coaches. I challenged myself with fire walks, abseils, iron bends, arrow breaks and silent retreats! I committed to my continual learning and personal development.
Through this I discovered that confidence is directly connected to trust. Knowing that changed everything for me.
If I wanted more self confidence, I would have to learn to trust myself.